Monday, January 26, 2009

unfaithful.

KH and i took a road trip to Austin this weekend. it was SO nice to be back, i hadn't been since September 21st. one thing i realized about myself was that i am an austin snob. some people are music snobs, some are movie snobs...but i, my friends, am a HUGE austin snob. here's why:


- i believe austin is the best city there is. if you try to tell me otherwise, i will fight you. in a cage. to the death.

- i hate going to places like Chili's when i'm there. that's lame. freaking go to trudy's or you're stupid. or magnolia cafe. or kerbey lane. or blue star cafe. or anything...but chili's. 

- there is no dress code. austin is one of the most inspiring places, fashionably speaking, yet "what you wear" or "who you wear" in austin is not something that defines you or puts you in a specific group. there is no uniform there. austin fashion is simply a reflection of your character and what inspires you as a unique person. that's why i love fashion - and that's why i love austin.

- there are always people outside. there is always something to do. whether you're shopping on south congress, biking around townlake, running in a half marathon (or just trying to navigate around roped off streets due to marathons - like me), you always see people out and about. the city is BUSTLING. it is bustling, people. 

- there is just something about that tower that makes my heart melt. 

and the list goes on and on....but that's just a glimpse of my snobbish tendencies (i know you know what i'm talking about). and since i've moved to dallas and fallen in love with this city too, i feel like i'm cheating. i literally feel like i am being unfaithful to the city who raised me, who nurtured me and grew me into the woman i am right in this moment. i'm being unfaithful to the place where i made some of the best friends i will ever have - the place where friendships turned into lifelong love affairs. the place where i first fell in love with a boy and experienced that can't breathe, can't sleep, can't-live-without-you feeling. the place where i found MY jesus - the one who lives in my heart. i'm cheating on the place where i learned to be a grown up so that i had the capability to move and start a career. i am eternally indebted to the wonderful gifts that austin, texas has given me the past 5 years. 

[so, austin, i'm sorry for leaving. forgive me for being unfaithful. i do love dallas, but this place will never replace you. i'll come home someday, promise.]

love/miss/namaste.

2 comments:

Ivy said...

you are beautiful

and

i love being your love affair.
what a wonderful paragraph. can i quote you on that?

Shivonne said...

omg that is a great term: "austin snob." i'm stealing that and you know why? because i am one too. as well as whitney by the way. i know for a fact she has had tiffs (yes tiffs) over her love of austin which apparently annoys some lubbock losers when she casually and rightly points out the superiority of our city. also, i was promised by whitney that we shall someday move back (maybe when the economy is not in the crapper) and live together in austin in all its austiny glory. in short-i empathize and feel your pain to the depths of my soul. still missing you....